Self Love September

I can’t believe it’s September already! Where did my summer go? And certainly, when will it start feeling like fall? I am pretty much over the humidity, and last week I felt like I was borderline heat stroke every time I set off for my early morning 10 a.m.-ish runs.

Either way, just as I always do, I am taking the opportunity to start off a fresh month with a fresh new set of goals.  This month though, I’m doing things a little differently than I have in the past.

This month I’m not focusing on miles or pounds. I’m not thinking in calories or macros, “after pictures” or visible abs…

This month, my sole focus is on learning to love myself no matter what phase of my “journey” I’m in. Nurturing my mental health as well as my physical well-being. Taking time to take care of me! And I encourage you to do the same!

It feels so great to tell you that, overall, I’m pretty happy and enjoying my change in lifestyle that lets me run in the morning. I’m so glad I gave up looking for excuses. I tell you, it even allows me to get a lot more work done all through the day and I feel much better when I go to my part-time job.

I know, when you want to lose weight, a good routine, like my morning runs, will help to break bad food consumption habits that you’ve become used to and taking dietary supplements or medication may help as well. For example, people who feel like smoking right when they wake up, or after a meal, may benefit from supplements or pills.

Just like that, pills for weight loss are also a good way of starting to burn fat fast. Anything to break your bad routines can be good. This could be chewing gum, doing push-ups, or just eating a snack rather than falling back into that habit. You just need to take your mind off your bad routine to get healthier. Though some caution is needed when it comes to dietary pills, with unhealthy foods, it works the same.

Do you ever feel like you are in some weird purgatory of not quite being good enough?

I know that I make the healthiest possible choices for my life and that I work hard for everything that I have achieved… but as I’m still not where “I’d like to ideally be” – I almost feel subhuman sometimes. Like I don’t deserve to dress nice, because someday I will be able to fit into smaller clothes. I don’t deserve to be proud of my athletic achievements because there are people out there who are much better than I am. I don’t deserve to have fun at picnics and parties or eat birthday cake because I am still “fat” in my mind.

This stops today…

Or at least, progressive changes start today. You see, when I was overweight, I was actually a lot more confident, though my little Acai therapy had worked wonders! At an earlier time, ignorance was bliss for me, but once I got a little taste of the daily quest to become a better version of me, along with the layers of fat I shed, I also peeled off layers of skin leaving myself more vulnerable to feeling less than perfect.

My obsession with becoming healthy became extremely UNHEALTHY. It’s all about the power of the unconscious mind. I am finally at a good place where I can see how flawed my way of thinking has been for the past few years, and start working towards being happy with my current self though, at times, I feel horribly uncomfortable doing all this just for my physique.

I haven’t been really lucky in finding a full-time job yet. To be honest, I’m just shy of being broke, but I do have my part-time job still! How I would love to work full-time now college is over. What I’d rather not do is listen to those losers complaining about bosses, their co-workers, their long working hours. They’d better start looking for a different job and stop complaining!

But when it comes to my balance in life, the truth is, you are you, no matter how much you weigh, no matter how fast and far you can run, no matter how heavy you can lift. You deserve to be happy, you deserve to enjoy life, you deserve to be loved. And who’s going to love you if you don’t love and take care of yourself?